I am worth it...

As week 3 is coming to an end I keep reminding myself that it takes 21 days to form a habit. And I am now one day away... however I think my new habits have already been formed. I am already obsessed with my 3 a day workout schedule and if I dont make it to all 3 sessions I feel like I missed out on something. And I no longer have to refer to the clock to keep on track with my eating schedule, my body just knows.I feel like any type of cheat is only cheating myself and I know that I am worth everything I am giving up, beacause the reality is I am gaining so much more.
Now I will say this week was a little more challenging than the last two. This week I was tired, my body was drained, and I was having a hard time sleeping at night. I tried melatonin and sleepy tea, but neither did the trick. However last night I slept well and even let myself go back to sleep this morning after feeding the horses. I needed it and it is my off day so I deserve it. I know my body needs rest to keep going. There was one day this week however that I really had to push myslef thru... Thursday was a second day of arms at bootcamp followed by a 30 min cardio session on the treadmill where I literally just wanted to sleep on the screen. And then trying to get back in the evening for class proved to be even worse. I hit every red light on my way in causing me to be late and unable to do tread and I could not find my ipod (mind you I know I had it in the morning otherwise I def would not have been able to do cardio) AHH but alas it was found by Mandy, I had left it in the bathroom silly, and then there was a light at the the end of my dark tunnel day. Two of my girlfriends whom are trying to get back in shape have also now joined cardiogirl so I am getting two free personal training sessions with Cory the owner, what a nice surprise, it made my few bad moments fade away. But then friday morning came and I just couldnt seem to get a jump on it and I really just wanted to put on something cute and not my usual yoga pants and tank top. However as I was lying in bed I recieved a message from Nadia at hardcore fitness, asking if I would be interested in being part of a documentary that would follow 10 participants of the challenge. YES! then a moment of yikes someone following me around at the gym when Im all gross and sweaty... atleast when I blog you all cant see what a mess I am. But if Nadia and Larry ask you do it, it means they have faith in your progress and faith in your desire. I figure I have already put myself pretty far out of my comfort zone in just starting the challenge, the blog and telling all my friends as well as postings on fb that being part of the documentary would just be an extension of that. Needless to say this got me up and at it.
I am excited to see what the next 5 weeks bring. I know there will be more hurdles and more days where I have to defeat my inner demons and power on. But at the end of the day I know I AM WORTH IT! I am worth every drop of sweat, every calorie I burn and every little moment that makes me proud of what I am accomplishing day to day. It doesnt have to be big to define my process it just has to be my own!

XOXO